I'm jealous of smokers.What???? You've got to be joking. Well hear me out. Outside of filling their bodies with poison these folks are finding a way to calm down during stressful times and takingthe opportunity to go outside and get away and don't feel guilty about it.
#1. You can't drink at work but you can smoke - both give you a buzz
- I could use a little swig of alcohol some days to calm me down
#2. If you've ever worked in a large company you know that smokers have to go outside to smoke these days, many, many times a day. Getting copious amounts of Vitamin D
- there are days I would love to go outside every hour but I simply know I must keep my head down and continue working if I ever desire to get things completed.
#3. These people are calm after a smoke, relaxed and overall easier to work with.
- I'd be happier if I could go outside, walk around a get away from my desk also.
#4. These people never feel guilty about leaving their work. Never! How is that possible?
- How do you get to the mindset that it's ok to leave your desk every hour for 15 min because I want to be in that mindset.
So I've said it, I'm jealous. Jealous that they know they have to take a break to get themselves in a right mindset, even though they are poisoning their bodies doing so. I'm jealous that they get to spend time outside, however they also have to go outside when it's sub zero temps to get their buzz. I'm jealous that they take copious breaks from their work, but I know that behaviour pisses bosses to immensely. Jealous that they can walk away from their work and not feel guilty, guess I don't know if that is true, maybe that's why they smoke, they sure seem guilt free.
So here I will continue my fight to try to heal myself with good food and good environments and I will try to put my Green Eyed Monster in his place and take a few more breaks and enjoy the outside as often as possible. I won't take up smoking, (even though I have been known to burn a couple while drinking, half a cigarette puts me over the edge). Instead I will be kinder to myself, give myself opportunities to just chill and be me. I will remind myself that I cannot do everything but what I can do I can do fabulously.
"I realized this week that I just cannot do it all, so I will choose to do what I can fabulously".